Mom Wins, Balancing Work Life & Mom Life
Hustle, hustle, hustle.
Hustle for that green.
Let me tell you, I love that hustle for that green. I’ve had it in me every day of my life. I love the fast-paced work day where I get pulled into a million meetings and switching gears to fix a company problem. During my last semester of college, I took 28 credit hours and had 1 full time job and 2 side jobs. Beyoncé’s song “Diva” you know, the one where she says a Diva is a female version of a hustler…. yeah that’s me.
But along with that hustle, I’m also a mom to 2 kids under 5. It’s a hard-balancing act. Just like every mom, I go to sleep wondering if my kids will be ok and if I’m doing the right things. I love my kids and I think I’m pretty good leaving work at work and home at home, but sometimes the line gets blurred.
There are days where I’m taking calls during off hours, and times that the stress of the day just builds up. There are days where my mommy worries build up at work. Then of course I stay up wondering, “Did I give enough of myself to everyone today?”
The answer is always, “No,” and that’s ok.
I don’t have to give every bit of myself to everyone all the time.
I work in technology, it’s always changing and evolving. Just like the tiny people at home. We always want projects to be in the green = good and on time. And I feel like that’s how people want their lives to be, always in the green. But realistically you can’t always be in the green. The only way to learn is to fail. I’ll be honest, there are days that my mommy skills are nowhere close to green, but my work skills are on point. And then there are days my hustle skills are in the red and my mommy skills are green, green, green! But it’s never on the same day. Just a couple weeks ago my son, who is almost 4, would not eat his lunch at preschool. I packed all the cool stuff, the stuff he begs for at home.
And nope, nada, no.
He refused to eat his lunch. Clearly, this isn’t in the green.
But it got me to flex my creative side. I thought to myself, “What else can I do to this peanut butter and jelly sandwich to get him to eat it?” Then it came to me. “Dinosaurs” That night, as I packed his lunch, I pulled the T-rex cookie cutter from the junk drawer and prayed for lunch time salvation. The next day, lunch time came around and again I prayed the phone call from the school wasn’t another, “ Your son isn’t eating his lunch” kind of call. Instead, it’s a “Holy Guacamole! He is so excited to eat his lunch today!” kind of call. Let me tell you, everyone at work heard about my mom WIN! As moms, we must take those wins in the green where we can get them!
A good friend of mine told me once “sometimes you’re a hot mess, but you’re never a hot mess in the same area at the same time. So just get comfortable with being a hot mess.”
I work 45 hours a week and love being a mom to my babies; and I’m pretty dang comfortable with being a hot mess. Stay with me here, what I’m babbling on about is sometimes my balancing act is perfect and I feel like supermom, and sometimes I still fail just like every mom. But in those failures, I try to learn and appreciate the laughable moments with my kids and with work.
And if you see me in spending that green in Target on the weekends, know that I’m savoring all my time with my babies. Also know that I’m just trying to not wear real pants on our Hot Mess Express.